February 26th, 2007 (10:16 am)
current mood: happy
I think my moment of slight "insanity" has passed. Things are feeling better and more normal again. I still have the problems that I had written about, but some of them are a little better.
I talked to Matty♥ about things...
Were a couple!
I couldn't be any happier.
I truly do think I might love him.
but once again there comes the fact that I am afraid to fall in love.
love hurts... I've learned that the hard way.
I want to let myself love him though..
..I think he might be worth loving.
I told him I'm afraid I may mess things up....because thats what I do best...
he told me that if I think I'm going to then I probably will...and we promised that if we have a problem that we will talk to eachother about it.
...I told him I doubted that I would have a problem..
but he told me that he likes me a lot and he wants this to work out!
Things are going pretty good with me and him though...and in a week I will get to see him! :)
When I texted him this morning he actually texted me back [he's been sleeping in because he's on vacation]. I asked him if I woke him up, but he said he had been laying awake thinking about me! ♥!! :)
Work went pretty good on Friday night. The job isn't too bad. All I did was wash dishes because things got busy and nobody really got a chance to show me around, but this Friday I'm supposed to go in early, and she's going to try to show me around. I'm going to be washing dishes, bussing tables, and doing a little bit of waitressing when they aren't too busy. I'm pumped.
I'm supposed to be working on some carrer stuff for Senior Soc, but I can't concentrate at all. I miss Matty!
Last night it was snowing pretty bad, and I figured that the school would be considerate enough to have a 2 hour delay because of how bad the roads were...especially out towards my house. But despite my hopes I had to wake up at 6:45, get dressed, and go outside and clean my car off. It was completely covered in snow, with a nice thick layer of ice under that. After cleaning off my car I returned to my house to put on my makeup and get some breakfast ready to take with me...but the lenght of time that it took to clean off my car kind of put me off track, and I was running late. I finally made it to my car 10 minutes later than I needed to be leaving, and I set off. Keep in mind that a trip into town usually takes me 10 minutes! ..Well I finally got going and all the windows on the passenger side of my car decided to fog up, so I couldn't see down the main road to see if anything was comming. I had to roll down my window, and a bunch of left over ice fell inside my car. After finally getting on the main road I was faced with another obstacle. Every time I tried to speed up my tires would just spin [that's how bad the roads were]. I finally got up the hill that goes towards Kane, and a snowplow is heading right towards me halfway on my side of the road...forcing me to move over into the slush, which made me slide around quite a bit and almost wreck. I finally got back into the tire tracks on the road, and got going again when a semi came towards me, leaving a huge gust of wind to blow me off track again. I almost wrecked a total of 6 times on the way to school today [once almost into a huge snowbank surrounding a guard rail]. I was terrified. The fastest I got up to was 40...and that wasn't very safe at all. I was probably going an average of 35 mph all the way to school today and it took me about 20 or 25 minutes to get to school. Thats almost double what it usually does. It just proves that Kane schools don't really give 2 shits about their students. They are just too concerned with keeping up their good reputation [they never even ever really have 2 hour delays...let alone cancel!!] They say that they have someone drive around to all the bus stops and make sure it is safe for everyone to get to school, but I know for a fact they don't come out as far as my house...and that is absolute bullshit!! I have never been so happy to get to where I was going!!!!
Ok...I'm done ranting now..